You feel like you don't deserve to be human. What do you do when someone refuses to change his mind? When he's dead set on dying and you can't say a word because you realise his only will is left to die? You see other people trying to change his mind and they can't change his mind and you know you can and you should try, because deep down you know what words to say. So you reach out with understanding eyes when you don't understand. And he looks painfully at you and tell you it's fruitless because it's not understanding but pity you feel. In the end you pull back, because those right words don't come out anymore and you know you're letting a life slip away and your eyes are wide open but your arms are tightly by your side. When your self-confidence takes another blow and your heart plummets to your feet and suddenly you actually understand and feel the same way he does and you start to go away too. Then how many outstretched arms will there be? And how many will truly realise that pity is not understanding and their shallow words can barely ward away the demons? When will you realise that all the while it is you hiding behind his sorrow and the death the Queen of Hearts is waiting for is yours?
Here
In the forest
Dark and deep
I offer you
Eternal sleep
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